Tomorrow is my first day back at work... i have been VERY depressed about it for a few weeks now and have been back and forth about weather or not i was going to go back... the smartest decision that has been finalized is to at least go back and give it a shot... I was really hoping that they were going to let me cut my hours a little bit..not much only by like 10 a week but that is not a option at this current time. It really stinks I'm gonna miss my little sweet heart like crazy and i know that I'm gonna be in tears on the way to work tomorrow, my eyes are already swelling up just thinking about it! I just feel that she is soo little to be put in day care right now. I feel like I'm just dropping her off to strangers and its not fair to her... not right now she is just to little. I feel like I'm going to be missing so much. I never imagined it being this hard. This is by far the hardest thing i have had to do in my entire life... it breaks my heart!
Thankfully Scott took the day off of work tomorrow and Sandy is coming on Sunday for a week!!! I am so appreciative that Sandy is able to come! I think it will make the transition a little less painful! (hopefully) I know most babies do go to day care and its not a bad thing but i feel that it would be alot better when she is a few months older. She needs her mommy to cuddle her and talk to her... :( I guess it just really bothers me that some one else will me soothing MY child and it makes me very jealous. It really doesn't help that I'm going to be away from my Sweet K for 11 hours a day. 9 hour work day 1hr there and back... SUCKS! I'm hoping to get my boss to understand that it sucks and hopefully he will be a little easier on me! Wish me luck!! :(
Thursday, October 23, 2008
D-Day
Posted by Rae at 5:11 PM
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When Zach and I hit the lottery, I will move down there and start a daycare and Brennan and Kylie and Carter can all come to my house and play together with Evan. :)
Good luck on your first day back.
aww rae!! there's nothing that can be said about how tough it will be tomorrow...but it WILL only get better from there and as Kylie gets older and recognizes her Mommy more you will get the biggest and brightest smiles when you come home from work because MOMMY IS HOME AND NOTHING IS BETTER THAN SEEING MOMMY and although it's only a small consolation prize it's definitely the best thing ever after a long day of work.
I feel your pain. Your first day is gonna kinda suck. I can only say that in the end it will be good because you will be in the world of non-baby talk again and people will answer you in English when you talk, and Kylie will have the opportunity to expand her horizons and meet other people and show them her baby charms. That doesn't make your first day (week, month) any easier, but it does slowly get easier and you'll come to realize that she will grow and do well with other people to love her and while no one can love her like her mama (except maybe her dada), the best thing for her is to have her exposed to other people while she's still so little.
Good luck. She's in good hands tomorrow with Scotty, and she'll be very spoiled next week with Grammy.
ALWAYS REMEMBER BABIES KNOW THEIR MOMMIES SMELL AND VOICE 100% !! NO ONE CAN REPLACE YOU! ITS A GOOD THING YOUR EXPOSING HER EARLY TO NEW PEOPLE ! WE MADE THE MISTAKE OF NOT EXPOSING BRAY TO ALOT OF PEOPLE (BECAUSE WE DON'T HAVE FAMILY HERE AND I NEVER HAD A SITTER EVER) AND HE WOULD ONLY WANT ME ALL THE TIME! WHEN WE WOULD HAVE FAMILY OVER HE WOULD STILL ONLY WANT ME SO I NEVER GOT A BREAK ! TRUST ME ITS A GOOD THING! YOU WILL DO GREAT! LOVE YOU! STICK ~
Good Luck!!
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